So it has been 2 weeks since I have posted anything on my blog! I am/have been in a big ole funk!! It started off with the holidays, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New years. Then I ended up getting very sick with bronchitis and I STILL have a cough and sore throat. During the holidays I ate a lot that I shouldn't have and fell back into old eating habits. When I got sick I couldn't exercise because I would cough up a lung. So long story short, I have been eating shit and not moving my body at all. To be honest the funk didn't really even start until I got sick right at the New Year. I of course had made all these promises to myself that 2013 is going to be different and I was going to eat healthy every day, get my water in everyday, and exercise at least once 6 days a week. When I couldn't start my year the right way I started getting down on myself and a little depressed to be quite honest! I know it is only January 16th so I can still make 2013 my year if I start NOW. I really and honestly don’t know what is wrong with me. Will I get out of this sad stage before it’s too late? I sure hope so! I am the only one that can do this for myself and I am the only one to blame if I don’t.
For this weigh in Wednesday I have gained 5.2 pounds from last week which was also a gain. I am not proud or happy with myself. I have almost gained back the whole 10 pounds I had lost. I literally cried when I saw the number staring back at me this morning. This is a cycle with me always gaining and losing the same pounds and I struggle everyday to break all the bad habits I have had all my life. When will I ever see the light at the end of the tunnel?
Sorry for being the Debbie downer today but I have to get this out and off my chest so that hopefully I can start new and fresh. Thank you for reading and have a blessed day!